Wow. It has really been quite, quite a long time since I have visited my page, or DevArt for that matter. I feel a little sad about that.

Hi there, guys. I hope you haven't forgotten me. My life just hasn't permitted me much time for art lately. School has rendered me so busy and totally uncreative! I feel as though my talent (if there was any to begin with) is slowly fading away. I want to grasp my creativity once again and make art. Luckily this semester I got into a General Art class and I'm quite grateful for that. Art is calling to me again, and that is what galvanized me to return to DevArt. After such a long hiatus, the desire to create art has augmented to considerable amounts.

I felt a little depressed for quite some time before I decided to come back. The thought of one my forms of expression slipping from my control and ceasing to exist made me feel extremely discouraged. I didn't want to come back here for a while. I was afraid.

Lately I've been listening to a multitude of music, and I must say,it really made me want to draw again or indulge myself in the pleasures of photography. It felt good that my old artistic self was not lost or dead.

I cannot promise that I will be posting much at a consistent pace, but I will try. I have created a couple of works, that of which I have yet to show you. There is one thing I can assure you, my art has changed a little. I guess you can say, I've found a new style of art. Something more along the lines of 'emo' I'm not sure if I'll be posting any fan art any time soon. However, I think I'll be posting quite a bit of photography.

I am sorry to burden you all into reading this and wasting your time. I just needed to let someone know that I am glad to be back.


~Until then, deariez

It's definately time that about time that I changed this journal, my previous journal entry just made me depressed. I would love to give a special thanks the following people:






and all the people who have cared enough to read my other journal entry. You guys are very special and I love you guys for actually caring I actually don't know how to express my gratitude, you guys have no idea how wonderful you are. Hopefully a simple and heartfelt Thank You is enough.

My grandmother died today...

I came home from school with a headache and decided to sleep. My mother woke me up with bad news. She told me that my grandmother died. It was shocking and totally uncalled for. There was nothing else that I could do but reply with a 'What??!' and look of regret. She left and closed the door after. I thought to myself, 'But I haven't even graduated highschool yet...' Meaning, she died before I could turn 18 (which is the coming of age and most important age where I come from) I buried my head under my pillow and actually started to cry, I didn't want to cry, but I did. She was a diabetic and any injuries would be severe.I knew she was in the hospital; she was there for about 6 days, but never had I expected her to die. I feel so guilty and I regret not taking advantage of the time my grandma and I spent together. I miss her dearly.

I didn't know what to do when my mother told me that she was going to go to the airport and fly there to attend the funeral with dad. They might leave this thursday, but they have to book their flights tomorrow. My mom's currently packing some essential things while my dad's arranging everything. They will leave for at most a week, so that means their leaving me for a week. I have no idea how I will survive because I can't cook, iron, or even use the stupid washing machine....

I love my grandmother. Even if there was a language barrier keeping us apart, she always tried to speak in english. She was caring and always thought of others before herself. I may not have been very close to her in this life, but hopefully I will get to see her in the next life.

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